For the past 2 days I have been so sick with some kind of sinus infection or cold or something. At the same time the girlfriend has gotten the flu. She is way sicker than I am but I am still very sick. I have been the one that has had to take care of Christmas, the kids. cleaning up and now the baby alone (my other kids went home to their mom). One would think that my dysphoria would be less given the situation but the truth is that it hasn’t been less it has been over the top worse. I feel bad physically and emotionally. I look at my facial hair, my chest hair, my man gut, my comfy clothing (all male) and it absolutely triggers my anxiety! I guess depression will have to wait till I can breath out of my nose again.